Confessions of a first time mom

I never talk about myself on here. I mean I talk about Jackson and our adventures, but not about just me. And sometimes I think that if I say something out loud, even if no one reads this, that it might help me work through things. When I became a mother, I realized my days of being able to get things done was over. Honestly though, I didn't really care. Or I guess it never mattered as much as me being a good mom, and taking care of Jackson. I still make lists and I still work my butt off at everything I do, but it's not the same. I can't get the dishes and the laundry done in one sitting. And even if I could get it done it The house will never entirely be clean anymore. Even if I tried my hardest to make it super clean, Jax would just come behind me and wreck it. I worry every day that the house isn't clean enough, Jackson isn't played with as much, gourmet meals consist of adding hot dogs to mac n' cheese, and the laundry is not ironed and hung in the closet where it should be.

After pregnancy, my body looked completely different. I was happy (mostly) with my body before pregnancy and when everything didn't roll off within a couple months, I was a little mad. But I had a newborn baby, and how i looked didn't matter, it was just a reminder of everything I went through to get him here. And when it still wasn't gone after a year I was slightly disappointed in myself, or whatever I'd done to get me to the place I am now.
Danny's side of the family is doing a fitness challenge. Which is nice, since it coincides with aforementioned weight I want to loose. It's nice that most of the things are pretty easy to accomplish. What doesn't help is my sister came to visit and we've been treating ourselves to a sweet here and there, since she doesn't get to come often. So there go my points for this week!! Anita, if your reading this, know that I am still trying my best. It's really just that since my sister is here, I get a chance to do things I wouldn't normally do.
I'm not doing the challenge to compete against someone in any way. I could really care less about that. It's really just a way for me to get motivated and to have someone I can talk to who is doing exactly what I am:) So watch out Crews family...(I don't really have a comeback, so we'll just leave it as that).


Oh, and that's my awesome sissy Jenna:)

15 month check-up!

Today was Jackson's 15 month check-up!
-He weighed 23.6 lbs
-He measures 32.5 inches long
-And his head circumference was 18.6.
He's on a perfect growth chart line, doctor says he's doing amazing. He was really surprised at all of the gross motor skills he can do!
He got only two shots, but it was more scary this time than it has been any other time!
After his afternoon nap he wasn't feeling so cheery..









He's was still feeling yucky and tired. But that's to be expected!

Photos

No explanation needed, just adore these!

Secret spots!

So Jackson loves being outside! No matter how cold it is! We've been going on lots of walks, and trips outside to get out of the house.
Last week we were outside taking a walk and stumbled onto the little park, hidden behind some apartments! Jackson adores it!






Swinging and laughing!





Isn't he just too cute?!





On top of the slide.





Here's some pics of him on the front porch..












Playing with his truck





He loves pointing to things outside to show me. This time it was a robin.
On Saturday we went and had a playdate with his friend Daniel. The McDonald's in Springville has a new playplace that's awesome for small kids!!! Take a look..











He loves slides!! Especially ones he can do all by himself!





Anyway that's all the sliding, swinging fun we've been having! Hope the weather stays nice so we can keep doing it!!

A little bit of everything

Sadly enough, I'm really sick today. I think I've come down with whatever Danny and my mom had:( I feel like crap. So I decided to blog, since I can't sleep.
First things first, Jackson has been having fun the last few days. We had tons of fun playing in the bath...





Soooo cheesy and so cute!


That just makes me laugh!


Peek-a-boo...I still see you! Ha

Yesterday afternoon, we had to go take our rent over to the office, so Jackson and I took a walk..


He had so much fun, and even found a small patch of snow/ice to crunch around on!


He loves being outside no matter how cold it is! Luckily yesterday wasn't that bad, actually it was quite nice:)
On Friday night, Danny surprised me, and took me on a sweet date to Tempanyaki with our friends Cara and Allen. Then after dinner we went to see Rango. It was cute, so if you haven't seen it yet head on over to the movies! It's a good one!

Glitter and donuts

So my mom gave me this little christmas tree that lights up when you push a button. The tree is covered in glitter, and jackson loves lights and buttons, so naturally he wants to push it non-stop. He didn't realize that by holding the tree glitter would rub off...


He had a really hard time figuring out how to get the sparkly glitter off his hands!


Jackson also had his first donut a few days ago:)
Check it out:


He seemed to like it!


And then after eating the donut he got thirsty


(that's the sign for thirsty)


Lesson learned: if you give Jackson a donut, chances are he's gonna want a glass of milk to go with it! Ha

Silliness, surprises and sappy love

After a bath, Jackson loves to look at himself in the mirror and be silly!










That's my silly little man! His faces just crack me up!

The other day Jackson started doing this:


Talk about surprises! Where did he even learn how to do that? And he walks around the house like that scooting his head on the floor with his booty in the air! Also today he started walking backwards toward the area where we normally keep the love sac, (which we moved into the office the other night so I could be comfy) and flung himself onto what he thought was the love sac, but instead was met with empty space and fell flat on his back on the floor. He didn't get hurt but me and Danny couldn't stop laughing! He's surprises me everyday!

And last but not least sappy love! February held a lot of anniversaries for us, our wedding anniversary, or temple anniversary, and our happy smooch day (which is the celebration of when Danny and I first kissed;)). So needless to say we got a few dates in, thanks to my mom, and lots of nights just spending time watching movies and cuddling:) aww! Here we are on one such night:




And Danny if you're reading this, I love you forever babe!

My poor sick baby boo

Jackson is sick. And has been off and on off a few weeks. Mostly cuz he's teething, but I think today he may have caught something for real:(
He's so sad when he's sick, and he tries so hard to laugh and be happy despite his yucky condition! Here's so pics of the last few weeks:





Got the stares watching cartoons.


So sick but trying to smile off me!





Finally feeling better, and then the next day he was feeling yucky again!


And we end with kisses:) Cuz hugs and kisses makes anyone feel better!